Thoughts on Contentment

Remember how I told everyone to be excited the last time I wrote a blog? Well, I apologize for being anti-climatic. To be honest, I forgot my password for a while. Typical. But don't worry. I've recovered it, and now I'm ready to write blogs that will blow your mind. Possibly.

I suppose I should get down to it.

I am an extremely cynical person sometimes. I hate the sound of my sarcasm, yet I continue to act as if I'm better than whatever it is I'm complaining about. Right now, I am cynic toward the general education classes I am bogged down with. Chemistry for Living, for example, is a 100 level science course, yet the last average test grade in the class was a 66%. What does that tell you about the teaching? Now, I'll be honest, I probably could have studied. However, a 100 level science class that I wouldn't even be in if I weren't attending a liberal arts university should not be so hard that the average student test grade is a D. Mine was lower than this in case you were wondering.

I am pissed with not only Chemistry, but all of my other "graduation requirement" courses. The only class I am happy to be in right now is Digital Video Production, a major class. A class that actually pertains to something I want to pursue outside of college. I find myself looking forward to more media classes next fall, and anticipate the end of this semester.

But with the loss of these dreaded classes also comes the loss of many great things. This is the last semester I will ever have with my girlfriend, Allison. (side note: we both agree that girlfriend/ boyfriend sounds like middle school vernacular, and tend to avoid using those terms at all costs). I am grateful for the time I have with her now, but at the same time, I am rushing to finish this semester. I sometimes find myself looking for the future plans instead of living in what God has provided for me today.

Some of you may be able to relate.

I am slowly realizing (only through the weight of God) that being cynical and complaining about my current state of classes completely hinders the other amazing opportunities and experiences God is providing for me. My cynicism does not solve my problems; it only veils what God is trying to share with me during my time right now.

i live on a wing with a bunch of guys at Taylor University. Tonight, a majority of us got together to share communion. Before we actually had communion, guys were given chances to share ways in which God has been working in their lives lately, and what they're learning through these experiences. As my friends were all sharing, I realized something semi-profound. I won't always be able to sit down with twenty other guys to share burdens/ praises, and have communion together. This then lead me to think about Allison, and how I will never get back this time with her to enjoy her company at Taylor. This time is precious. And I have been complaining it away.

Sometimes we need to examine absolutely everything, and take a minute to stop and breathe. It is in these breaths were we can realize God's ultimate work in our current lives.

Matthew 6: 25-27